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Jag ska flytta till Stockholm, jag! 8D;;;;;
... *sweatdrop*
När jag flyttade till Hofors för tre år sen så var jag inte särskillt nervös (jag BORDE ha varit skräckslagen för jag är sån av naturen). Hofors är en liten ort. Visserlgien full av nazister, illasinnade ungdomsgäng och religiösa(dock ibland trevliga) galningar, men ändå.. dessutom visste jag ju inte om dom negativa delarna av samhället, och jag hade släktingar nära och allt. Jag var rätt nöjd och glad med mitt beslut ...
Nu.. ska jag - uppvuxen på landet, i norrbotten, fyra mil från närmsta småstad - flytta ner till hufvudstaden och det känns SÅ HÄÄÄR läskigt just för tillfället.
Jag längtar som fan efter ett nytt rum att ställa mina saker i och det ska bli as-kul att flytta ihop med två av mina bästa vänner<3, men det är nog allt jag är nöjd med just nu.
Skolan är läskig. Flytten är läskig. CSN är läskig. Kontrakt är läskiga. Jobbsök är läskiga buhuhuhuhuuuuuuuu ;___;
Och jag saknar redan min fina, fina bokvägg hemma i min lilla skrubb där jag bor, hos mina föräldrar<3
Kommer sakna dom också förresten. familjen alltså. vi har alla bott så nära varann senaste året. Min syster och hennes b-f och dotter flyttade in i huset nedanför, så jag har varit på filmkväll där praktiskt taget varje natt sen jag kom hem förra våren också ^___^; kanske dags att börja vända tillbaka på det dygn som varit felställt i snart två år nu ;8 D
Det känns som att Sthlms Universitet är det mest seriösa man kan ta sig an. Jag är jätterädd. Tänk om jag inte hittar lektionssalen eller gör bort mig första dagen eller om läraren är ond. Eller tänk om man måste göra muntliga framförandeeeen TT^TT;;;
Jag är precis lika feg som i mellanstadiet ~ yuppieee ~ jag har gått bakåt i den personliga utvecklingen =__=
...
Jag måste sluta med det här omedelbart!
Jag eggar upp min egen rädsla ännu mer !! den dagen - den sorgen!!!
- adjö rant! - goddag filmkväll med Ben& Jerry-glass! <3
- Location:skrubben i nord-östra flygeln
- Mood:
crappy
A quick add to last minutes journal-entry.
I made a quick look into my inbox on the way out, to see what's happend here lately.
I don't watch many people/clubs/communitys and most of them I got when I first started here and didn't know anything, and so on and so on..
BUT ANYWAY
I only did a quick look (as I said) and of course most enteries are from the HarryDraco-community I've been watching forever. They overflow my inbox haha :P
But what has happend to this fandom while I was gone? The first thing I saw was some incestious story about the kids (that I hate that JK ever told us about;;; ) and.. and.. and I was all: "nooo, has my fandom died now? I am olllld TTT^TTT" ..haha.
- But really, how are things?
Is anyone still interested in old fashined HarryDraco-cuteness/stuff or is this fandom indeed really dead because the books are finished since long time and everything..? :/
I feel sad if that is so. It means I wasn't there enough when it all 'happend' and now everything is corrupted and I just wanna fangirl like we all used too do only some few years ago =______=;; ~ I just like fangirling. It's fuuun!!!
I guess in the case of HarryDraco there isn't much new stuff to go on about. Not only did JK see to it that half of the fangirl populations' interest died along with the end of the last book, but there is nothing to grab from either since it's actually over. But that doesn't mean we have to PANIC and start writing / flipping about the damn kids =___= Okey so eventually I guess, if I'm into HD and actually update myself I might actually try reading some Harrys kid x Dracs kid-story at some point (inevitable), but it won't be the same, I'm sure =__________=
AND to end this little add: I didn't go too far into the inbox so I might just be worrying myself for no reason here, but I would certainly not be very surprised if I'm right either.. TT___TT
~ so ~
Fangirl of the Old ways - are you still out there? 8 ]
- Music:Is that a Kiss (Peter Pan)
It was so damn long ago since I posted here.
Actually I've almost never written anything important for other people to read yet, but anyway (also I keep saying this in every journal lol)
It's been so long. I even got new "friends" adding me here since last time D8;; <3
I'm gonna try to summerice what I've been up to since last time, and then figure out what I actually want to do with this account to make it interesting or at least alive :]
Okey so if your interested in what I've been up to:
I've moved back 100 (swedish)miles to my home in Norrbotten. Comic school is done :P I'll miss it all foreveerr <3
I've been living with my parents the whole summer, autumn and winter. Very comfortable (almost feel like a paracite hahaa;; )
but sometimes it's felt like a little to close to everyone. I guess I got used to living alone and I never found it hard to be alone either,
and I've been feeling that my family thinks that I don't like them and that I am spoiled. This not true, as you can guess. In arguments the past months these thoughts has been uttered from some of them though, but that is another issue..;;;
¤ I've been active in the choir since I got home, and gotten involved in smaller projects through that. Been to the World Meeting in Haparanda and singing gospel and felt cultivated and international :D
¤ I've been taking two different classes this spring.
Am, at the moment, finishing up the Concept Art-course that I'm taking on distance-level at Gotland University.
The other course I've taken is Japanese (language you know :P ) at LTU (Luleå University). Wrote the final for the Basic Japanese 1-class last week. Got the positive results today that I actually made it :) Pheeew!!! I thought for sure I was failing Dlll
Also started the Basic Japanese 2-class today.
¤ Me and Gabbi and MayaByron has started to work on our own Studio that's to be named GAMAJO.
We've had meetings for a while now and we have finished all the nameing-logotype-homepage design-issues. The website will be up shortly, if only I can stop shewing on my leg and get working on the introductionflashvideo ^___^;;;;;;;;
We'll be going to the SPX'09 (expo comic convention) in Stockholm this april, too. Gonna be awsome, for sure.
¤ And that reminds me; I went to the UppCon convention in january and got together with all my frieeends from the comic-school <3
We had madly fun and ate nudles and went to the YMCK-concert. It's 8bit-music and a totally friggin' cool band!
Also we did all the other crispy things you do at a anime/manga/japan-convention; watching anime/AMV-contest, drawing, going to interesting lectures/workshop/stuff, shopping merchandice, going to the cosplay- and lolita fashion-shows, buying pocky >___> and doujinchis and stuff :]]] ah, you get the picture ; D It was veeeery cold to stand in line all friday morning (over 5 hours TT^TT) but it was too much fun to ever want to have undone!!! XD
¤ Other things this past months.. hmm.. I've gotten too many new favourite songs to be able to count them up. Many that are not new songs but that I have descovered in my music-maps.. Latest collections; On Your Mark (for the Miyazaki-video mostly), Your Hand (from Switch, a preeetty pretty anime that has only let out one episode so far XD ), High Way Man (Kris Kristoffersen ~ cool country music m'yes :) , Gengångare by Torsten Flinck, Jag är en vampyr by Markus Krunegård, Colour me Blood Red, NeoSphere and many many many more...
¤ Of couse I keep falling in love over and over with all Naruto-music.
I'm also up to date with the manga and it's freackin' hard to have to wait each week for more XD;;; No matter what anyone thinks, I still like it. I just miss Sasuke at the moment. Where is he?!! D:;;
Last night I happend to discover that Monochrome Factor might not be as bad anime as I thought when I started watching it, and my darling Kyou Kara Maou has ended ;;_____;; I already miss it so much <3
¤ Part from anime and manga and music.. uh wait there is no more.. I . .that is my life.. >__________>;
lol . I had a bad argument with my sister last wednesday, and if it wasn't so long ago now, I would have babbled on and on about it to you =__=
It was so bad that I actually fled. I took my things and ran away to Gabbi in Sjulsmark. Thank you Gabbi and Gabbis family so so much for having me and my emo ass staying with you ;__; <3
How ever, I had a thing I'd promised to do with my choir-leader on friday, so I had to go home just about when I'd started to feel a little better and actually almost wasn't afraid of my sisters rage anymore .. I'm a real sissy, aren't I? orz lll
So anyway we had this big fight over sms actually, my sister and me =__= I threw a tomato(half joking, half mad) that happend to miss her face and skratch in her hair instead and she got mad and I got mad and she got madder and so on.. and I left her where she was, in our kitchen, and went to my room. While there, her anger over my ignorance and spoildness grew and so on..
We are okay now though. We had Ben&Jerry-ice cream the other night, and went shopping today after school.. So she is fine and I sertainly do not hate her or anything (never could anyway) and I still don't feel I did anything that bad from the very start. Only thing is I'm still frustrated that I ended up on the losing side.. again =___= ah, well. there will (hopefully) come a day when the youngest siblings will have their voices heard too, I guess..
So have i forgotten anything now..? hm.. ah well..
SO NOW THEN ENOUGH ABOUT EVERYTHING ALREADY D8
Is anyone reading this?
I will probably go on and on anyway (haha never getting rid of me, LJ moagahahaha! >8D )
but it's fun to know if anyone is actually patient enoguh to go through my psycho/utterly boring personal rambles =3=;;
I have to say that I've not been very active at all (hence the huuugh update lol) and I don't really know how to loosen up this place.
What can I do? Can I even post pictures here? like sketsches or something? what else could I do?
I really like to write but I don't know what..? Haven't written any fictional work since high school lllD
Guess I can make this a working journal or maby just update with smaller things more often so that if anyone is interested in sertaion stuff, you can just read that.. hm, sounded kinda decent. Yeah, maby I'll stick to that : ]
Okay I have really got to go now. *everybody = sigh of relief* XD I have duties. And homework T^T
~ ~ bye bye now and hopefully hera from you later! 8D
- Location:my room
- Mood:
tired - Music:"Ala Geyik" from Holger
I must be high or something.. >.>
It all started when I went home from the drivers-class an hour ago...
*blur effect*
I was walking home, all alone in the dark cold evening, listening (by coincidence) to a Tenimyo-song called "Make You Free" while walking.
And then!! By the time I got home, I was in a deep, unexplained extatic happiness..! O________o;;
Yes!
I'm so damn happy - and I don't know why? My whole day has been more or less crappy -- a script went straight to hell and I then realised that I am unable to write scripts at all hahahahahahaaaaaa... 8D;; *hangs self* -- Then I failed on getting into the work-out-group 'couse some old women was faster on snatching the last bikes! DX SO no work-out dammit!!!! -- And then.. ...um.. well it was all I had to complain about at the moment >_>;; but ANYWAY I had nothing special to be happy about either! Even more: Tomorrow is the worst day of school in a long time - "explaining why I choose what I choose for final-project"-class TT___TT;;;
- SO WHY?
I'm not complaining! Nooo, I'm not gonna be picky - not at all ! >___________> I love being happy!!! xD
I've now started to listen to MORE Tenimyo-music and every song makes it sparkle in my heart! *cough-lame-description-cough*
It might be that any lovely music could make me extremley happy right now - but I choose Tenimyo and it's so GREAT-O!!!!.. >8DD
Right now I'm listening to "You've got game" and I can see Kimeru's theeth before my very eyes and a lot of people running around some green stage in gym-clothes and dammit I get so giggly!!! XD Damn you, I'm not even a REAL Tenimyo-fangirl - I haven't even seen all of the musicals yet D: *booo and throw vegetables at me*
So -- back to the happy-part... I'm happy!
Let me be happy forever please someone make it true so that I can be happy foreverrrr!!!! D;;;
I haven't been this speeded in a long time.
I'm most often this high when I do the laundry (another mystery coincidence) but it didn't come last time.. so I guess it piled up or something 8D
... yeeeah e_O.. Most people have weepy-periods when they're really down - but what if I have happy-periods too?!? O.o
Oh let it be soooo!!!! <3
"Do your best - do your best - Do your best - do your best -Do your best - do your best - Do your best - do your beeeest!!!" 8D
Ps.
Did I ever mention that I have to scream along with the audience/fangirls in the "Golden Pair"-song from Dream Live 1?
- 'Couse I do - I have to do it! It's unstoppable.. the fangirl-rush.. .. *________________* ;;
... maby THAT'S what's going on here? A FANGIRL-rush?!?? O__________O It IS possible...
but.. can you become fangirly without being directly exposed to fandom? Well of course you CAN, but at a half-shitty day like this , all out of the blue?
I guess that must be it then.. >______________________________________>
"ON MY WAAAAAAAAY!!!!!" *happy weep*
- Location:in front of screen at home in Hofors
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:TENIMYO
[ this rant (somewhat shortened) is also posted in my DeviantArt-account http://jontamar.deviantart.com ]
Oh dear god - the ironiiii!!!! D;
Yesterday I finished a fanfiction I've been reading for a while and it ended kinda sad (or at least nog happy happy ) TT_TT and I coulden't get these thoughts out of my head:
1) ( ~ this is more of a fact really ~ ) I love happy endings and HATE sad ones!!!
2) I seem to acidently find / read sadly-ending-stories lately... >_>
3) ...OR it might be a trend to write sad endings in stories nowadays..? D:
So I was emo:ing all night over the cruel world and sad endings in general, and I started to think the worst things
of every book/manga/fanfiction I'm currently reading - thinking they will all end in misery ( - though I don't really
know that yet -_-;; )
Ya know..
~ very well ! then Tonight I finished a 12-pockets manga I've been reading for years now (waiting for next volume to come,
'till I grew tired of evil cliffhangers and started to collect all volumes untill I had all of it, before continue to read it...) AND I really like the story very much and I was really worried that it would end sadly, when in 10th volume, everybody get's injured (shot or stabbed mainly >_> )(!) - and I sat on my bed with the books and weeped "pleeease don't let it end BAD please please pleeease!!!!" D;
And HERE, ladies and gentlemen, COMES THE IRONY >>>
>>> It ended happy! 8D ... And it was a really sweet happy end <3 but damn (!) - the happy ending was put
already in book 11 (!) D8 - And in book twelve the characters got into new (not as dangerous/ serious but still) difficult situations that seemed to be written only to get in an even HAPPIER ending yet again! (=__=;;)
- it was all kinda like this:
--- OMG the egoistic, mean, spoiled, very annoying bad-girl who was in love with the maincharacter-boy is all alone and feels jealous of the maincharacters (which OBVIOUSLY got each other in the end)
- but HEY! it turned out she had the perfect guy at her side all along, only unable to communicate properly with each other - untill main-charcter stepped in and told them to love each other! D:
--- and OMG the bad-guy (- whish I both love and hate <3 ) who was in love with the maincharacter-girl was also alone in the end D;
- but HEY! he finds himself a 16-year-old girl who adores him, and he finds true love D:
-- and then OMG it turns out that the maincharacters (who even got married Dll ) can't have babies
- BUT HEY! "a miracle CAN happen" and they get a baby on last page (!) without (!) further (!) explanation D;;
*puuuuke* ... gowd I had to let it out.. phew...
- I still HATE bad / sad endings and LOVE happy ones (!!!)....... but even I have limits (=___= );; (like when the words "I love you - I love you too!" is repeated
at least two times on every page
for the last 80 pages or something... >_> in the "softest" happy-moments I just spat "damn I just want some hardcore Yaoi right now!!! D;" )
- and I still like the manga - but I think I can happily skip the very last part of it... xD
- Location:in front of screen
- Music:fangirl-mix X)
People, do any of you remember how I'm always behind on reading my Jump-magazines?
Well, don't worry 'couse the problem is solved! 8D .... >_>
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawd! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Stupid stupid fucking swedish publishing house who gives out manga-magazines in Sweden!!!
- BEACUSE they will stop doing it.. =_=; ... Yes.
Some weeks ago I told one and all that this publishing house was going to stop the making of the first swedish manga-magazine, Manga Mania, and put up another magazine more focused on girls manga (Shojo Star).
- Okey, that was bad for me because I don't read that very much shojo (if it's not bL involved)
and I really, really liked to get Airgear and GTO and Wolf's Rain in my mailbox every month..
But, I thought, at least I have Shonen Jump (the 2and swedish manga-magazine)!...
And now manga-people, we have yet again been let down!
~ Yes, for it is my sad, sad duty to tell you all that also THIS magazine will go under!
- I got a letter this morning telling me that they're 'sorry' but I can 'shoose to read some of their other magazines',
like Spider Man (who has gone right down in shit since the time-skip) or X-man (whom I haven't been reading for
a year or so and totally forgot about.. ) or Shojo Star (which I'm already getting since when MM died)...
Aaawwww, I'm so tired of this! DX
And I'm concerned about it formore reasons than me getting my monthly shot of entertainment.. >_>
- I will also have absolutly no career in Sweden at all, if they keep dropping the interest for manga like this.
The only thing I’m close to wanna become is a manga-comic-artist, damn it !!! TT___TT
- What will one do if stupid Sweden see's manga as only a trend and let's it blow over and die?
- What will I do? Become a cleaning-lady? (no offence to you damn good cleaning-ladies - it's just not my area of interest when searching for a job.. ) I have no other options!!!!!! ---> I wanna be a comic-artist/writer!!!!!!! D:
And that give's me an opening to tell about my latest inne discovery! 8D
~ Some night's ago, when working with the stupid children's book - it just hit me like a rock!
I got this great, classic *Naruto-moment (!)* a la real life! O___O
I was like "I'm gonna be a mangaka and make important, really critical people recognice my art!!!!"
(- fighting spirit ! ! ! *faint drums in the distance* ) >: D
(and this is the absolute trouth about what it felt like back then... like a 14-yearold anime-character.. >__> )
I wonder if my resent Narutarding did this to my brain..? >_> I have NEVER thought things like that before..
Never had that "great goal of life" ya know.. not since I was a kid at least,, not as long as I can remember..
- Naruto changes, not only people in the manga//anime-series but also in real life??!?? O_o*
On other subjects;
- I had a bad dead people & zombie-nightmare tonight and woke up 15.30 (way to late), longing for a big hug.. >__>
Is anyone else wondering what is happening to my entire being 'couse I do..?!? e__e ;
I'm not a person who need's hugs and closeness THAT badle, and not over a nightmare, even though it was about zombies..
And what's the deal with the fighting spirit?
Is my recently being a night-creature (more than normal) making me a better person to myself or something?
O_o;;; It doesn't make sence... .. .
Well, don't worry 'couse the problem is solved! 8D .... >_>
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawd! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !
Stupid stupid fucking swedish publishing house who gives out manga-magazines in Sweden!!!
- BEACUSE they will stop doing it.. =_=; ... Yes.
Some weeks ago I told one and all that this publishing house was going to stop the making of the first swedish manga-magazine, Manga Mania, and put up another magazine more focused on girls manga (Shojo Star).
- Okey, that was bad for me because I don't read that very much shojo (if it's not bL involved)
and I really, really liked to get Airgear and GTO and Wolf's Rain in my mailbox every month..
But, I thought, at least I have Shonen Jump (the 2and swedish manga-magazine)!...
And now manga-people, we have yet again been let down!
~ Yes, for it is my sad, sad duty to tell you all that also THIS magazine will go under!
- I got a letter this morning telling me that they're 'sorry' but I can 'shoose to read some of their other magazines',
like Spider Man (who has gone right down in shit since the time-skip) or X-man (whom I haven't been reading for
a year or so and totally forgot about.. ) or Shojo Star (which I'm already getting since when MM died)...
Aaawwww, I'm so tired of this! DX
And I'm concerned about it formore reasons than me getting my monthly shot of entertainment.. >_>
- I will also have absolutly no career in Sweden at all, if they keep dropping the interest for manga like this.
The only thing I’m close to wanna become is a manga-comic-artist, damn it !!! TT___TT
- What will one do if stupid Sweden see's manga as only a trend and let's it blow over and die?
- What will I do? Become a cleaning-lady? (no offence to you damn good cleaning-ladies - it's just not my area of interest when searching for a job.. ) I have no other options!!!!!! ---> I wanna be a comic-artist/writer!!!!!!! D:
And that give's me an opening to tell about my latest inne discovery! 8D
~ Some night's ago, when working with the stupid children's book - it just hit me like a rock!
I got this great, classic *Naruto-moment (!)* a la real life! O___O
I was like "I'm gonna be a mangaka and make important, really critical people recognice my art!!!!"
(- fighting spirit ! ! ! *faint drums in the distance* ) >: D
(and this is the absolute trouth about what it felt like back then... like a 14-yearold anime-character.. >__> )
I wonder if my resent Narutarding did this to my brain..? >_> I have NEVER thought things like that before..
Never had that "great goal of life" ya know.. not since I was a kid at least,, not as long as I can remember..
- Naruto changes, not only people in the manga//anime-series but also in real life??!?? O_o*
On other subjects;
- I had a bad dead people & zombie-nightmare tonight and woke up 15.30 (way to late), longing for a big hug.. >__>
Is anyone else wondering what is happening to my entire being 'couse I do..?!? e__e ;
I'm not a person who need's hugs and closeness THAT badle, and not over a nightmare, even though it was about zombies..
And what's the deal with the fighting spirit?
Is my recently being a night-creature (more than normal) making me a better person to myself or something?
O_o;;; It doesn't make sence... .. .
ending:
--- Is the swedish manga-world coming to an end? – I’m collecting evidence – Look at my entry about Gravitation some time ago at DeviantART >>> http://jontamar.deviantart.com/journal/1
- Location:in front of screen :p
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:mostly love, sadness and sorrow
...um, yes, Matsuda - the stupid "clown"-character from DEATHNOTE...
(warning; I might be spoiling something of the end of the DEATHNOTE-manga if you're pickish )
O_o;; It's so weird (really), but a very strong feeling of pity and sorrow for him washed over me when I was making dinner just now... how odd is that... >__> I even used to hate stupid Matsuda...
It's like when I listen to "Yellow Moon" from NARUTO and I feel sad over Naruto's fate of loneliness and bitter strength and... or, or in GRAVITATION, for poor baby-Shui-chan when Yuki-bastard just leaves him and runs away... TT___TT
*sigh* I just had to tell someone.. let it out, you know... *sob*
It's about in the very end... and Matsuda's feelings for Light and everything...
gawd, I wanna cry..!!! ;___; poor Matsudaaaa!!! D;
No! Noo, I'm being stupid and I have to stop this, so that I can feed myself and get started on the end of my fu**ing school-project - the children's book of evil (!!!!!) ... DX
... um.. now I wanna cry even more.. *stupid school-project*... =____=;;
And I feel more sad for Matsuda's feelings than for Misa Misa's... that stupid, brainwashed psycho-girl... X(
*refuses to like Misa at all*
Crap - needs to get started on the project now... blaäh!!!
- Location:in front of screen
- Mood:
sympathetic - Music:anime-mix
Gaaah!!!!! - I need to make up my mind about lot's of things right now,
and most of all I need to work hard and not be so damn fangirly!!! TT_______TT
*reads seven chapters of Harry+Draco-fanfiction instead of working on school-project* DX
I have a deadline on monday, but since I also have a Con coming up this weekend (UppCon), I have almost no time to work... ;__; I have to be done by thursday at the very latest!!!!!
That's ... 3 days from now... TREE DaaaaaYs!!!! *not a possibility*
Gaaaah!!!!!!!! DX
Not only have I less time because the Con takes my entire weekend, but I also have to make time-sucking preparations for the Con ( which only will make me dead-nervous in the end =__=;; ) ! ! !
These preparations (mostly about clothes, hair and living decently during Con) are entirly my own choices to make, but I planned it for so long and I can't just drop it now.. >__>
And then there's also the problem with the fangirliness.. (( >___>
- I know I can't do this again *remembers the time I stayed up ALL DAMN NIGHT to finish reading a Naruto-fanfiction*, but God Help Me the fanfiction so good!!! D; I can't stop reading...
*major dread and panic builds up inside*
*sob* ... it's all doomed... I might as well continue reading now.. I could NEVER work on a childrens-book when I have a fangirl-virus in my brain... >__> *has weak character ---> continues reading...*
a little later...
- I have now decided to do all of it!!! - It might take all damn night, but I will finish the script AND read fanfiction and check my dA... AND watch some Naruto *__________*
I will probably drop dead at some point.. but to prevent that I will build up a hugh storrage of tea... *takes a sip of the tea* and fruit and goff... *waiting for sugar-rush*
... bye bye
PS. My face is falling apart. The skin itches.. can it be out of the stress?
- And *LoL* Gabbi-sensei, can we watch Oofuri tomorrow, pweeze?!!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!!! *w* I neeeeds it..!!!
( - and *LoL* I need to learn how to use Lj.. >__< )
- Location:in front of screen
- Mood: stressed
- Music:fangirly-stuff
I took every chance to live all the old traditions - instead of put up with these awful new ones, such as to drink as much alcohol as you possibly can, eat bad-tasting / boring food, and dance around some german invention to the embaressment of all included...
No, I took on the older stuff, where a beliefe in the magic in the nature holds a great deal.
According to old sayings, midsummers night is the night when the magical power of the nature is strongest in the whole year.
I started the evening slowley, with me and my father play some music, mainly floute, jaw's harp, mouthharmonics and violine. I later ended up singing lot's of really old swedish songs.
When my dad had gone to sleep, I went out, all dressed in black middelage-trousers, a white tunic and a long veil - and bare feet. (I love to dress in weird clothes)
I went out on the field and in the forest to pick nine flowers, each diffrent from the other.
It has to be nine or seven, since those are magic numbers in old belives. You also have to be all quiet during this ritual, or else the magic can be broken.
After a long search, when I had I gotten seven flowers, I went up on a hill and watched the sun set / rice while I thanked the four cardinal points.
Then I went to search for the two last flowers and got out of the forest with only one (!) musquito-bite.
When I got home, I made a "dream~porridge". That's a very salt porridge which I had to eat without anything to go and no drinking either. After that I went to sleep, putting the nine flowers under my pillow.
The dreamporridge (and the flowers also) is supposed to have effect on your dreams.
Once you had the very salt porridge, you'r suppose to dream that someone gives you a glace of water, and the one who does that is the one you'r suppose to marry sometime in the future! :P
Anyway, I only had weird dreams about the upcoming live-roleplay in july... no love.. :( But what the heck, I might have done some mistakes last night... XD
Gotta go now...
- Mood: relaxed
Tonight I'm going home for the first time in six months :D (as u can see on the colourful text I'm happy about it...)
Lot has happend. My sister's got a baby now. All my friends have got boy / girlfriends and have moved out from home..
My choir has "died". TT_TT --- ( The choir-leader got to much work-hours, so me and my friend's choir got to be sacraficed... =___=.. damn... )
~ But still, I long so much to get out of this "iron metropolis" - XP - and once more run on the green fields of home!!! u_u.. ( ~ gosh, I'm getting the "Sound of music"-mode >___< *blushes* )
So... I'll be around... >___> weeee!!!
And so now for some matching songs ;D
"Sweet home XXXXxXXX
Where the skies are so blue
Sweet home XXXXxXXX
Lord I'm comin' home to youuuuu"
"Take me down to the paradies XXXX
Where the grass is green
and the XXXXXX are pretty
Oh, won't you please take me hooome, yeah-yeah"
"Country-road!
Take me home!
To the place I belong;
West XXXX,
XXXXXxXXXxxX
take me hooome,
Country-road!!!"
- Location:on the road.. soon...
- Mood:
happy - Music:Narnia soundtrack
Why just seaguls?
Anyway; on my way home this evening, I happend to turn my face to the right for a second, and then I saw a seagul standing on a parkingplace, not moving, but screaming nervusley.
I stoped my bike a second later and turned back to see if it was injured, but I couldn't quite see what was wrong with it's legs..
So I started (foolishly as only I can do), to talk to it and asked it what was wrong.
By that, it lifted and started to fly around the spot it had been standing on - and then I saw it:
A tiny, gray little duff on the ground - a baby-seagul!
The mother (or father?) was screaming angrily at me and the baby soon started to run on it's little legs to the end of the parikngplace, towads the grass on the side.
It didn't get very fast, but at least it could move - and it could hide!
I was worried all the way home anyway. I had to call Gabbi-chan before I even started biking again.
Aren't seaguls building nests?
Why do they keep their kids on the bare ground where any evil human can get their psycho-fingers on it?
Was something really wrong or was I overprotective?
Poor baby - I hope it makes it in the world...
I've seen "Pan's Labyrinth" tonight
(not sure if it's called that in english.. maby more like "Labyrinth of the faun" or something...).
It was horrifying!!!
OMG I haven't seen such a goory movie in YEARS!!!
I kinda laughed when we saw "Evil dead 2", but this... GAWD!!! ((O...o ))
I don't know why.. maby it was because I haden't read about it or anything before - I thought it would be almost a childrens movie..
But HELL it was like the worst horrifying horror-movie ever. It was messier than ... anything... T_T
- Overviolence, skinny monsters and evil-looking fauns... And they didn't cut in the last second or anything - they showed EVERYTHING!!!
Amputating legs, hammaring noses into the skull, biting of fairie's heads... JESUS CHRIST MAN!!!
But I still liked it... am I a sic bastard? ~ 'Couse in spite of everything, it was hell of a GOOD story! =)
I'm thinking of buying it, but I'm afraid I won't dare to see it again.. and then it would be a waste buying it... =__=;
sooo... I have to get some "Harry Potter 3" now, some coco and then some sleep. Big, bad day tomorrow... XS
Pray to all gods who listen (sorry to be a heathen when it get's bad...) that the evil teacher won't bring up my comic in front of the class... TT_TT
but , yaaaarh - that's tomorrow... bye bye - I'll be returning when I get something new on seaguls... XD
- Location:Hofors (my 2nd home)
- Mood:
worried - Music:"When doves cry (How can you leave me..)"
The spring has come... (Don't know why I write in english, but what the hell, I need practice...XD)
And with the spring came LOTS of seaguls.
LOTS!!!
Most of the time they are just annoying and I get scared that they will dive into something I eat and give me deceses.. (And we've all seen "The Birds", didn't we...?! yeees...) :S
But their "screams" really reminds me of summer and the ocean. :)
I really feel that it's not long until I can go home - run on the open fields with my dog and relax and have someone else come up with what food we sholud eat today and feel no angst for being robbed or kidnapped on my way home or something... [That last stuff about being kidnapped might have been an overstatment.. (=__=;) maby...]
I sat at the balcony last night, drank some tea and watched the stars. It was really nice to be able to sit outside in the middle of the night. That's what I love alomst the best about summer.
And this morning I sat there again, drinking juice and feel the sun give me so much energy! ( and That's why I was late this morning - sorry about that, Gabbs ^.^; )
Anyway, a few minutes ago, I sat there AGAIN (I friggin' LOVE my balcony!!! XDD) and I heard this really sad-sounding seagoul. It seemed to cry - and then another, soft-sounding seagoul came and sat beside it... It was beautyful ;) weep* pling * sob *
(I'm such a romantic-nerd - XD)
- Location:Hofors (at the balcony probably) XD
- Mood: good
- Music:nordic folkmusic (holger! ^_^)
cero-five-thirty.
I've just seen "Lost and delerious".
I cried in the end.
It was very, very sad and so very painfully beautyful...
I was not suppose to have seen it tonight.
It was late enough as it was, when I thaught, "I can watch the trailer that came along with the film"... But then I coulden't bring myself to not see it. Guess it's just the way I am. I love the night. I love film.
I never cry usually. Only when I watch sad and beautyful films. Especially the music has got big effect on me...
It might sound very "emo", what I just wrote, and no wonder. If you see the film you'll know. These are my instant feelings after seeing it. I also note that I can take ver y much impression of the film. Right now I almost hear one of the main-character's voices read this out loud...
You should see it! It's really beautyful... :)
I have to get some sleep now, and think of weither or not I should delete this post... =___=* Good night... z z z z z *fell asleep...*
- Location:home
- Mood: tired
- Music:soundtrack of "Lost & delerious"
first entry.. nice X)
.. my poor friend made me do this Live Journal-page, but I totally forgot about it for the longest time... XD But NOW I'm here so never mind... XP
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... oh crap! I've got nothing to write... and I planned to be so cool and all... X(
I'll be back with lot's of good stuff soon - I'm just so "slow" right now. The time is waaaaay past my limit.
And I'm a total vampire so that chould tell a lot about what late time it is... XD
see ya around :D
- Mood: tired
- Music:"Ushinawareta Tama ~ Lost Spirit" from Porco Rosso
